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చెప్తే వినాలని ఉంది అని!!

Soulmate

The day she identified her soulmate, she wrote in her secret diary:

" I understood today that adultery is not always committed when we loose our moral standards and crave for cheap pleasure...

It happens sometimes when we submit ourselves to a supreme calling beyond the society's comprehension, beyond the rules set by ordinary mortals...

It is true that it takes great courage to do what is morally right when the odds are high. But it takes greater courage when even morality is among those odds. "

Miss You !!

Missing someone is not about how long it has been since you have seen them or the amount of time since you have talked. It is about that very moment when you are doing something and wishing they were there with you. 

The weight of feelings I have for missing you right now can never be amount to anything in this world. There are no enough I miss you' s to make you feel how much I'm really longing to be with you.

I ache every night that, I won't be able to physically be with you. I'm longing to find you next to me whenever I wake up at 2:40 am. All I want is the touch of your skin to mine.

I miss you, I miss your touch, your smell, your body beside mine. This distance is killing me honestly. All I want is to be beside you sleeping , to cuddle and to talk this and that. All I want is waking up every morning knowing you are there to kiss me good morning.

I miss holding your hand. I miss hugging you. I miss kissing you. I miss laughing with you. I miss you, IT HURTS!!!!

I don't know how to put in words about how my heart is breaking because we are apart right now. If I could jus break the distance between us, I would do it without wasting a second.

Of all the things that's been coming out of my mouth at this moment, I could really just utter the words "I miss you" because that is what I am feeling right now.

I miss you. So bad.

Dear Society,

Stop telling women to tolerate emotional abuse for the sake of harmony and peace in the house!!

Because for you, he didn't hit her. 
For you, emotional abuse is not an abuse!

He doesn't hit her, but she is scared everyday to ensure he is satisfied enough to remain calm and happy.

He doesn't hit her, but he steals her sense of comfort and security leaving her paranoid and crazy.

He doesn't hit her, she doesn't have any physical scars to show but she has emotional scars - but whom i am kidding - you don't care!

Every time she tried to raise her voice against the emotional abuse, you tell her - 

"Don't provoke him! Why do you do things to get him in a bad mood?"

"Why can't you just be silent when he is in a bad mood?"

"Don't say anything..please don't ruin the peace of your house!"

As you told her, she stayed silent everytime she faced the emotional abuse. Because - to maintain the peace in the house!!

But with every passing day, the accusations, the verbal abuse, the name calling, the never ending criticisms about her, her work, her duties and responsibilities, her sense of self scraped away.

From being a self confident young woman, she slipped into a self hating victim who had no one to listen to her.

You made sure she suffers in silence to maintain the peace of house. But here's what you didn't know what emotional abuse did to her!

With continuous emotional abuse, she lost her sense of self.  Without knowing that the consequences of emotional abuse are just as severe as those from physical abuse, she stayed silent.

So next time, when he puts her down, she believes him. when he says it was her fault, she believes him. Consequently, she started to agree with him and became internally critical.  She got trapped and started believing that she will never be good enough for anyone else!!

You refused to see, how he made her feel emotionally weak and helpless.

You refused to see, how he insulted her and crushed her confidence!

You refused to see, how she was made to live under constant fear, anxiety and vulnerability.

You refused to see, how he puts the blame of everything that goes wrong in his life on her.

You told her to believe you. You told her to believe that it wasn't an emotional abuse because arguments and fights happen in all marriages. You told her his bullying behaviors were the result of her own mistakes - She provokes him!

She was made to believe you that she was not the victim but the problem.  And sadly, she believed you for a while.

But for women, who feel the emotional pain, i have a message for you..

Don't let society tell you any lie. Don't listen to them! Don't blame yourself. You may have done everything right but still, the other half made you feel that you are at fault. Don't tell yourself it's okay. Do not apologize for their mistakes. Do not let them tear you apart to build themselves higher!

You are worthy of love happiness and respect.

Please don't wait for them to change as they carelessly rip apart your soul and self confidence. Please don't tell yourself it's ok or ever get yourself get used to it.

DO NOT LET THEM BREAK YOU!!

నా సొంతం

నా కళ్ళల్లో దాగిన కన్నీటి సాక్షిగా 

నువ్వు నా సొంతం. 

నా గుండెల్లో దాగిన ప్రేమ సాక్షిగా 

నువ్వు నా సొంతం. 

కాలం కరిగిపోతున్నా  ఎదురు చూస్తాను 

నీ కోసం !

మట్టిలో కలిసిపోయినా మళ్ళీ పుడతాను 

నీ కోసం !!

Happy Family Valentine's day

Dear Husband, Valentines day is here again. It's been exactly 8 complete years since we started our journey. I was thinking about us and our life. Since our younger one is born, we are even more occupied. 

Our usual days are mostly about meal time and sleep time struggles with our elder one and feeding, cleaning & soothing the little one. Our conversations are mostly limited to our boys. I look forward to see you in the evening to hand over the kids to you and to tell you about their activities during the day. Weekends are mostly playing with kids and fixing things.

I miss our us time. I miss our couple dates. I miss watching movies together.

Life will not be the same in few years. Our boys will grow up and will be needing us less. They will get busy with their lives, their friends and their career. There will be no bang on door while taking shower. There will be no or less screams, shouts and mess. There will be no tantrums(hopefully). Our marriage started with us and again there will be 'us' only. We will be able to go for walks together, just you and me. We will have some real uninterrupted conversations, without kids crying or calling Amma and Nanna 100 times in between.

While I look forward to that phase of our life, I knew we are going to miss this beautiful time of our life when our children are growing up. We are going to miss these family hugs, abundant kisses, meaningless giggles, innocent questions and all the craziness. So, let us celebrate each and every moment of this golden time, laughing out our struggles and enjoying the madness! Life is beautiful. 

Happy 'FAMILY' Valentine's day!

ఆ చూపులో ఈ కనులకు చోటిస్తావా 

మదిలో మాటను దరి చేరుస్తాను...! 

చినుకయి బదులుగా దిగి వస్తావా 

నేలయై నాలో కలుపుకుంటాను ...!!